Monday, November 16, 2009

The bright red star

Written on request by MNK again :)

Pearls! They dazzle when you smile at me
A smile as sweet as ever could be
They knew when you were born, that's true
That smiling star, Is that you?


Stars! They shine so bright when you look at me
Eyes, as kind as there ever could be
You came down to earth and that's when they knew,
That shining star, Is that you?


Music! That's all I hear when you speak to me,
Words, as Naive as ever could be
They named you after a star, Well it's true
That Glowing star, That's you!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The journey

It was a foggy and cold day. Priya was trying hard not to snooze.'What a waste' She thought 'Sitting in this stupid bus at the crack of dawn, so that I can get to that hell hole and spend the day doing what I hate most'.


All of her life, Priya never got out of bed before eight in the morning. Two years ago, she landed a job and that was the end of that habit. Her office was on the other side of town and she had to spend a good part of the day travelling to work. What made it worse was that it was not what she wanted. It was not her dream job. To her it was 'a job that paid the rent'.


The bus was cruising at top speed. There was hardly any traffic so early in the morning. The bus lurched to a halt and Priya woke up with a start. She looked out of the window and said 'Shit!' loud enough for the guy in the front seat to turn around and go 'You forgot?? Again??'
Priya just glared at him and whipped out her phone and started dialing.


'You don't even have him on auto dial? Honestly, I don't understand why he does not ask one of us to call'


Priya was trying her best to ignore him and was muttering 'pick up, pick up, pick UP'.


"Hello?" a sleepy voice answered the call.


"I forgot to call again" she squeaked into the phone.


"Oh , that's alright. I'm on leave today. Not feeling good. Sorry I didn't let you know before"


"Ohh! Take care of you!! "


"Yeah I will. Bye"


"Bye". Priya looked slightly disappointed. The guy in the front seemed satisfied with what he saw. He turned around in his seat and fell asleep.


Priya fished out a novel from her handbag and started reading it. But she could not concentrate. Something just did not seem right. She tried to read a few more minutes and then shut the book and shoved it back into her bag. She picked up her phone and dialed Neeta's number. She let the phone ring for a few seconds before she cut the call. It was a signal to Neeta that the bus was approaching.


After a few minutes, the bus stopped and a pretty girl got in.Priya could smell her perfume even before Neeta came into view.


"Hey Pri. Where's Suraj?"


"Hey babe! Not well, won't be coming today"


"No wonder you look so frumpy. I mean if I don't talk to you first thing in the morning, I feel like I haven't had my morning cuppa coffee"




"Great" said Priya moodily " As if I were not addicted to enough things, I am now addicted to Suraj"


"Haha. And If you do not get your daily dose of Suraj, you sulk and act moody"


"Very funny Neeta!!"


The guy in the front seat turned around to let them know they were disturbing him. Neither of the girls looked at him and continued talking. He turned towards the couple sitting across the aisle to complain, but they were too lost in each other to notice. He grumbled something about disturbance in the buses and went back to sleep. Neeta and Priya giggled and continued to gossip until they reached their destination. They bid each other goodbye and went on to their blocks.


Priya sat down at her desk and switched on her PC. As she checked her mail she realized it was going to be a long day and started working right away. It was 8 P.M by the time she finished all her work and rushed out to catch the evening shuttle. Luckily, not many people were working late that night and she managed to get a seat by the window. The bus crawled through the traffic. Priya sighed inwardly, she knew she would be very late today.


An hour later they were still nearer to the office than her home.Priya was hungry and tired and felt really irritated. She was no mood to talk when she saw her phone flash suraj's ID. She answered only because she thought it was polite.


"Hello"


"Hi" Said Suraj. He sounded better than he had in the morning. "Are you still not home?"


"No, took the 8'o clock bus. Traffic is horrible, I guess it's gonna take another hour. Did you want something?"


"You sound really tired.. Actually, I just called to tell you that I would be coming to office tomorrow. Don't forget the signal"


"I'll try not to " Priya said smiling in spite of herself.


Suraj asked Priya if she heard A.R.Rahman's latest album and their conversation veered towards music. They continued talking for more than an hour. Priya got off at her stop and was walking home. She was feeling exceptionally cheerful.


"Ahh! home at last. I'm really hungry. What did you have for dinner?"


" Nothing yet, I think mom made parathas"


" Well then go and eat. You should have told me earlier"


" You said you were hungry, I did not have the heart to tell you"


Priya smiled and said " You know you are so silly at times? You are not well .. go eat. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye"


"Bye"


The next morning Priya made sure she alerted Suraj on time. When the bus stopped and Suraj walked towards her, she realised she felt really happy. She felt like she hadn't met him in a long time. They started off where they stopped their conversation the day before , only to pause to signal Neeta that the bus was there.


As soon as Neeta got on to the bus she went " Hey Suraj, how are you doing today? Somebody missed you a lot yesterday." and gestured towards Priya.


Suraj turned towards Priya with a questioning look.


"Ohh! you know how boring this journey can be" said Priya airily, hoping that Suraj did not notice her blush.


Suraj looked at her in a queer way for a few seconds. Then Neeta started telling them something she heard about the HR guys and they spent the rest of their journey arguing about that piece of gossip.

It was a busy week for Priya. She also had a job interview the next week and she was busy preparing for that. It was the same story everyday. She would get into the bus, alert Suraj and then bury her nose in a book. Suraj and Neeta would give her pointers for the interview.

On the day of the interview Priya felt really tense. She wanted the job badly. She knew she could do it, yet she had an uneasy feeling about it. She had reached the place an hour early and was trying to calm herself down by listening to some music. She recieved a text message from Suraj "I'm sure you'll do well :). Treat in office cafe tomorrow?"

Somehow, the message seemed to have done what the music couldn't do. Priya felt a lot more confident now. She did very well in the interview and got the job.

Priya was really excited the next day. She did not take calls from Suraj and Neeta the day before so that she could surprise them with the news. She finally got her dream job. Suraj almost ran to her seat and said "Well?" Priya kept a straight face as long as she could and then she squealed "yessss!"
"Awesome" roared Suraj "when are you joining?"

"Can you keep it down?" the guy in the front seat muttered.

Both Priya and Suraj grinned at him sheepishly. Priya turned to Suraj and said "I have to join next week. I've got so much to do before that. I am so excited."

Suraj's smile faltered slightly, but he recovered quickly and said " Ohh that's too soon. But I guess you can manage. I knew you could do it"

Priya raised an eyebrow and said "Really?? You did not look that convinced a minute ago.."

"Well, you wouldn't take my calls. So, I thought you were depressed or something.By the way, Neeta will not be coming today. She said she had to go somewhere"

"Ohh, then I better message her that I got in. She'll kill me if she hears from someone else"

The week rolled by too soon and it was already friday evening. Priya finished all her goodbyes and got into the bus. Neeta and Suraj were waiting for her. All three of them were very excited. They chatted away happily until Neeta's stop was there. Neeta hugged Priya and then got off the bus.

Once Neeta had gone both Priya and Suraj fell silent. They usually never ran out of things to say to each other. But that day, they were unusually quiet.

"Don't sit like that, say something!!" urged Suraj after a while "We might never meet again"

Priya just stared at him for a while. Then she started talking about her new office.When Suraj's stop came, he shook her hand and gave her that queer look again. Then he got off the bus.

Priya felt a sudden sadness engulf her. She would never see him again. She looked out of the window, Suraj was walking down the lane. It was no use denying it, she was hopelessly in love with him. She wanted to call him back and tell him that she loved him. How she wanted to turn back time. But she knew, that even if she could turn back time, that journey would end exactly how it did. She did not have the guts to tell him how she felt about him.

Priya joined her new job the next week. It was a great place and her colleagues were fantastic. Of course, she still had to travel to the other side of town. At least now, she felt the journey was worth it. But she really missed the fun journeys of the past two years. She missed gossiping with Neeta, though she tried not to think of Suraj. She reasoned with herself that she could not have it all. She had a great job and that she should be happy about it.

As months passed Priya slowly got used to life at the new place. She now had a lot of new friends. Neeta and Suraj called occasionally and they used to talk about old times. One day Neeta suggested they meet up for lunch over the weekend.

Priya was waiting for Neeta at the lakeside restaurant. She was checking her watch every two minutes. Neeta was not usually late, but then as she always says 'sometimes, traffic can be a bitch'. Just then Neeta walked into the restaurant. Priya's heart sank when she saw who she brought along. It was Suraj! She had forgotten what looking at him could do to her heart. It was beating like crazy. And then it stopped beating abruptly as she noticed something.

They were holding hands, and they looked great together.

Priya sighed and waved at them.

" Hey guys" she said, trying to smile, but she wasn't really sure if it was convincing.

They joined her at the table. Priya could tell Suraj was trying to avoid her gaze. He picked up a glass and started drinking some water.

" Hey babe" said Neeta , beaming at her "Guess what?? I'm getting married"

"Aren't you supposed to say 'we'?" asked Priya gesturing towards Suraj.

Suraj almost choked on the water he was drinking. He was looking at Priya with his eyes wide open.
Neeta looked at her as if she were insane " What on earth are you saying?"

"Well you were holding hands when you came in" said Priya defensively.

"Are you crazy or what?" said Neeta "This guy developed cold feet after reaching the restaurant. He wanted to go back so I was dragging him in." Neeta was glaring at Suraj all the while. She seemed to be angry with him about something.

"I'm sorry" Priya said to her knees. She did not know where to hide. She was feeling really stupid.

"Priya" said Neeta in a different tone "Do you really think he could?"

Priya looked at Suraj, who was still staring at her with wide eyes.

"Priya, I couldn't.. I never would" he muttered as if in a daze.

"For heaven's sake stop muttering and say what you want to " Neeta growled.

"Priya, I could never marry Neeta" said Suraj "she's not..." he trailed off.

"Me!" Priya said with a faint smile.

It was a foggy and cold day. Priya was trying hard not to snooze. She woke with a start as her phone beeped to indicate a text message from Suraj.

'Miss u already- hubby'

Priya sighed "What a waste! Sitting in this stupid bus at the crack of dawn going to spend the day away from him"

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Five years

I just sent a mail to my friends with the same text, but I can't help but repeat myself. It feels like yesterday that I stood outside that gate. Scared and excited at the same time.

I met quite a few people that day and never did I know I would make friends for life.
The early days in CMC, sitting with adi and trying to work out programs. Feeling jealous when someone scored more than us on a test. Making new friends. Bike rides with jyothi. Anu me and jyo forcing adi to eat pani puri. Making detours just to eat pani puri. My huge brick of a nokia phone. Parvez eating pani puri with a spoon (most of my memories revolve around panipuri). Pinki naveen and kakuls huge fight.

Kernex, first thing that comes to my mind as pavan said is the great food we had. We all used to sit on the floor , I used to save my sweets so that murthy could eat them. And when the heavy breeze would take away our chapatis and papads.. Sam would shout 'are murthy egiripotav jagratha.' Giving a 'hand' to Adi everyday after lunch. Sitting next to parvez and siraj in the first row and managing to talk throughout the day without the faculty noticing. Dressing up for dandiya night. The early edisanus of RAKtv. Bhupi telling me he'd donate some money so I could buy clothes which were not torn. Sandy's comments about me combing my hair. PRP!! Studying, failing, crying and studying more.

Then moving to work. The antakshari in QP, days(months) spent in freepool. The bus journeys on sundays.Sriram and bhaskar bribing sailu to shut up. Bhupi, Sandy, Mahi, Hari, Sriram, Bhaskar moving to blore. Bindu crying till the fountain was full. :)

And most of all how can I forget ' mr braganza!! ahhaaa!!'

Now five years have passed. We don't share the same equations with everybody. But somehow the bond remains. Add your memories here everybody. not just with me.. whatever you shared with We43. Add a comment.

Monday, July 27, 2009

FRIENDS

Staying away from home, from family, from friends, from your beloved city. A few special moments keep coming to your mind. So I decided to pen down those special moments when I first spoke to a few good friends. Or those few moments which helped us grow as friends. What I thought of them then, what I think of them now. I must mention that the people are mentioned in the order that I met them and not how important they are to me :P



The only kid my age in our colony, jayanthi. She was a couple of months younger than me and we were great friends. I used to go to her house to play every morning and she came to mine in the evening. So thick we were that everybody in family knew her.(atleast her name). She was my junior in school and I used to help her with homework and were friends from when we were 2 year olds to 14 year olds. And then we lost touch. Heard she got married. Not very sure.



My first friend in school on my first day at school. My mom left me at school and left for home because she was told to. I was 2.5 years old and stood a few inches tall :P (I mean seriously, if you think I'm short now , you should have seen me back then.) So they ended school early and all moms came to take their kids. I was told to go home , so I went. I walked to the road and then realised my home was not there :D and started crying. One of the teachers saw me and took me back to school. There I met kalyani. She was smarter than me and a year older too and was waiting for her parents (how intelligent). She even gave me a chocolate!!! And we were best friends that day. Later we 'performed' a school dance and went on to become good friends. Both of us moved to another school and from there I moved to another school and we lost touch. I do see her in the bus stop once in a while. But now that we are grown up , we act like we don't know each other and walk past.



There was Radhika, who simply adored me and took care of me all the time. She used to scoop out food into a spoon and then flip the spoon into her mouth. At that age I thought it was amazing :P. We lost touch later but we still smile at each other when we meet.



There were no special friends after that until I joined a new school when I was 10 years old. This girl and boy came with me to school on the bus. And we just spoke to each other. And we've been friends ever since. Kiran and I have been inseperable in school. Lost touch in between but got back again. I missed her wedding and her baby shower and still she wasn't mad at me. Praneeth and I have lost touch now. But back in school he was one of my closest buddies.



In tenth standard I joined another school and there were a few friends. One day we had a school excursion and none of the girls from my class turned up. That was when I met sowmya. She came upto me and said. Hey don't worry that you are alone. Join us. She is one of the most level headed and intelligent girls I know. We were not that thick in school but became real good friends while we were in college. Lost touch now. Her smile is the no 1 genuine smile in my list.



My first day in intermediate , I sat next to this real tall girl we smiled at each other and exchanged names and they sounded almost similar. She was yasmine and I am yamini. She said 'don't mind , I talk too much'. I said ' No problem, So do I' and we never stopped talking after that. Partners in crime , always upto some mischief. And strangely I never felt odd walking next to her. She was almost a foot taller than me. She used to talk to her boyfriend for hours on the phone and tell her mom she was talking to me. And her mom would always scold me whenever we met :) . yasmines married to her boyfriend now and has kids. Her number has changed and whenever she tries to call me I'm never at home. And my folks forget to note down her number. So we've lost touch.



Graduation days, BARDAASH, Almost all of us met during dance practice for the farewell party of our seniors and became really good friends. I went up to these girls and said 'I'm going to dance for the farewell will you join me? I'll teach you don't worry' and then we were all great friends.

Bhagya - tall and fun. She is cool and unassuming, boyish and I dont remember how I met her. Sorry dear missed ur wedding.

Aruna- Pretty! stunning! beautiful! intelligent! and very very sensitive. We were art partners. She was a lot into writing poetry and I too was bigtime into poetry back then. She calls me up after 2 years to tell me she got married :) . Lives near my place but never got to meet her yet.

Let me skip the R and the D.

Anitha- lovely long hair crazy about icecream and the most traditional among us.

Sharani- My darling! We used to go to college together every day. We gave our first job interview together and been together almost all the time for the better part of the three years. She is really sweet and cute. A little slow at times but that adds to her charm. We all used to crack up on some silly little jokes and after all of us stopped sharani would start laughing saying ' oh i got it now'.

Harika- The guy of the gang. Used to tease me about how little I ate. She'd be proud of me if she saw me eating now. I used to hate how loudly she spoke and she used to hate my hatred of loudness. Nevertheless we were great friends. I always used to say I would never wear a sari even to my wedding. I wore one to her wedding and fell in love with sarees. Now I own 25 :). She has a baby but I could not visit her due to work commitments.

And then I joined WASE and had an explosion of friends.



My first friend in WASE Ayisha. We stepped into this world together and ended up joining the same project. She was the serious kind while I was everything else. As they say opposites attract. Still in touch.

Then there was Dipti. Dips was always fascinated by my earrings and she used to ask me if my ears don't hurt wearing them. We then performed at an office event and there was no turning back. We have been really good friends ever since.

Naveen and I fought with each other during our early days in WASE over who gets to sit in the first row. But we became friends soon enough. He calls me akka coz I look like his sister. (He is older than me though). I must say I have never seen anybody more talented than naveen. This guy is good with almost anything. Except language. He is no good at any language :D



Parvez. Where do I start and what do I say! My bestestest buddy. We have been inseperable for a loooooooooooooong time now. He is almost like family now even to my parents. One day (2 days before my birthday)I came to class on my sunny and my hair was completely dishelved. He asked me if something was wrong with me. and told me he'd gift me a rubber band on my birthday. He actually gave me a rubber band on that day. don't remember whose band it was. We used to study together early on but after that we went on to know each other and became very good friends. He is the one who made me realise my potential in whatever I did. And he is the reason behind my addiction to non vegetarian food. We share a love for animated movies and KFC. Good or bad every moment shared has been wonderful

Pinki, she and I are so much similar, yet so different. Saw her first at the entrance exam for WASE. She seemed like a snob and I really hated her. over action chestadi.. that was my first impression of her.It was much later that I understood overaction is her birthright. 100% senti 120% mental. Again dance was the reason we became friends :) . We are crazy when we are together , but always in a logical and sensible way :P . Nobody but pinks and me can do that. What I like best about her is that she never tires praising me :P

Pavan , Jyo, Ajju, Anil, they were my busmates at different times and it was always a lot of fun being with them.

Rakesh and I first sat together in class because I had no place to sit that day. We found out we had a lot in common. The conversation that started that day lasted more than a year. People had to force us to stop talking. Ego , misunderstandings and mistakes on both sides led to the end of this friendship. We are changed people now and I don't expect the friendship to grow back anymore, but I cherish the loooooong conversations we've had.

Arindam dasgupta, how I hated him. Good looking in a careless sort of way and always upto nonsense. Dance and music were the foundation of our friendship. Later, he became a good friends boyfriend (soon to be husband) and I had no choice but to accept him as a friend. :)

Sourav, I was never comfortable talking to him. He always seemed so distant and aloof. I only knew him as the guy who was crazy about miss XXX. The number of friends I've made from dance shows, Sourav is also a part of that list. We never spoke much to each other for a very long time. I remember how he was dancing like crazy on a DJ nite and everyone thought he was drunk. He came upto me and said 'I swear achi, I'm not drunk'. That was funny and scary at the same time. Thanks to Gtalk we are really good friends now. And I know what he thinks about 'everybody'. :P

Bakka ravi, he and I used to travel on the same bus but never spoke to each other. One day I was sitting on the last seat depressed about work, he came out of nowhere and started talking to me and cheered me up considerably (he dint know I was depressed). And from that day we spent every bus journey speaking to each other. Right from Hariharan's silky smooth voice to how to flirt with gals (both of us don't know how :P ) , we spent our journeys talking and talking and talking. WASE ended and the bus journeys ended but we do make time once in 2-3 months to stand outside our ODC and chat.

Dave and kavita, Late entrants into my friends list. They both have always been so much fun. And I must say I'm a huge fan of kavita's poetry and the way she speaks. So much to learn!!!

And then there are Sofia, Shailaja, Kamala, Sunita, jyotsna, Y madhu, S srikanth, Vedavyas, Raghava, Pooja, Farida, Vandana, Shyamala, Shanthi, Ramu, Srikalyan, Indu, Sush, garima, shaifali, aarti, rajani, shailaja, sailu pinni, sailu potlakay, anu, adi, rohini,neetika, sujata, vidya, anil, mithul and Hanu. All of you have been very special and have played a part in moulding me into what I am today.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

pics!!

I need the pics of these ppl.. i'm updating my wase album.. if you have them send em.. and if i missed out anybody else.. remind me.. and if you have the pics.. send em to me

bhupi (found)
sandeep G (f)
hari (f)
sriram
chirag (f)
sourav (f)
kishalay
kuldeep
deepika (f)
sudip
amit dutta
amit chakroborty
archana kodati
purnim
payel (f)
bharat
archana
ramya
raghu
vijay
lavanya
debarati
soumya
santosh
kishore
rhitwik
lavanya vunnava
jamal
heeresh
radha

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Insatiable

I draw aside my window curtains to let in the bright morning light
One look at the clock tells me it's not morning, but night,

I take a look out of the window surprised at natures ways
oh what a pretty sight, isn't it like i dreamt always

Trees with no leaves ,neither shrivelled nor dried
With the promise of a full bloom, so they can show off with pride

The sea beyond seems asleep, so steady and calm like a lake
not like the one back home, rumbling, roaring and so awake

The birds seem to have the same chirp, the same way they twitter
They wake me up every morning, never have I seen so many together

The strangers on the roads are not very friendly,
but, they neither push nor jostle nor speak to you rudely

Peace is what I yearned for, yes that is true..
Happy and content, is the way I would seem to you

yet, satiety is just an arms length away
and as I reach, it seems to stray

I realise , insatiable is the human soul
how much ever it has, It always wants a little more

Monday, April 13, 2009

Not at that age!!

I came across an advertisement last week where a little 'bespectacled' girl asks her dad if she is not pretty. Dad replies 'of course beta' without even looking at the kid. and then she says 'but nobody looks at me' . they show her talking to a little guy and he does not even look at her. So dad gets a car and takes the girl on a ride and everybody starts looking at the car while the poor little one believes everybody is looking at her (every body's ogling at the car). And she goes 'Am I so pretty)

Normally I might've considered the AD cute.. but of late I've been subject to a lot of MCism and also a lot of prejudices regarding looks. I have come to terms with the fact that we cannot weed out these prejudices and women (of late men too) will be subject to such insults regarding their complexion or height or the lack of it. I am dead against criticizing or putting down people because of their physical deformities (except overweight coz that is most of the time due to carelessness and needs to be checked) . And considering bespectacled people ugly is one thing I simply cannot tolerate. Excuse the narcissism, but I wear glasses and I think I look equally pretty with or without them.

We have always considered teenagers impressionable and have come across endless discussions on how one should not pressurize them about how they look. I have read hundreds of articles about how such prejudices should not be created and how it creates pressure among adults.

And now these guys decide to regress and create pressure among kids. They have enough things to worry about already (homework growing tall, which cartoon channel to watch). Do we have to create complexes among them about how they look. And also that people will look ONLY if you go around in a car. puhleez!!give them a break.